Thursday, April 17, 2008
sometimes it just feels like nothing is going the way i want it. sometimes it just feels like nothing is wrong, yet something is missing, something is wrong. it just doesnt feel correct, yet i can never place my finger on it, before it goes running wildly around, and i can't catch it. this odd feeling of dejavu, this feeling of recognition, of "why must it be me".
you might not know all that i've gone through. but she knows, she cares. she's been through more than me, with your ATTITUDE. i can't stand it. she can. she's nicer than me. she gave you so many chances, yet you dumped her for a girl who caught your eye. and yet you asked me what you did wrong. don't lie- it doesn't work on me. your attitude seriously sucks. i want to just give up. give up on you. but i can't- because of her.
and you. he did you no wrong. he did no wrong. if there was anything wrong, it would have been between you and me. but why did you take it out on him? you act as though nothing was wrong. as if nothing had changed. but did you know, under the laughs and joy i hear when i talk to him on the phone, i can hear him asking WHY? he asked me so many times, told me that you broke up with hardly a reason. if he had did you wrong, then i understand. but on the one occasion when i met you... i saw a pair that seemed a match in heaven. why dont you give him another chance? his heart. when you ditched him, his heart must have broken.
and finally... why did you do this to me? i've been smsing you so many times, yet you ignore my smses? when casual smses you, you reply immediately? i've smsed you using so many numbers, yet you dont reply. why? nothing in this world seems right when you're not beside me. my heart will shatter if you dont reply. if you reply, saying you want to break, i wouldn't mind. but is this the way to dump?
i'm just lucky that i have cookie, casual and dimi with me. as well as all the other guild members. i'm just lucky that they understand. yet sometimes, i can only confide my secrets to casual, yet at other times... cookie is my confidant. cookie is not a crazy guy.. i just feel that he's *abit* mischeivous and abit nasty at *most of the* time. but he's loyal. this guild has a loyal feel. i remember the first guild i joined. *FAMILYS* it was called. it was fun at first, when we had all the guild slacking times. but then. when the gm expelled a jr. for not donating money, everything turned nasty. i couldnt stand it anymore and left. thanks to hope, he gave me a guild. a guild that was fun - no slacking times, but there were the occasional guild notice chats. and it just felt that i could let out my feelings to anyone who was on.
ok ._. i'm crapping again .. bye ._.
i still love you .
you might not know all that i've gone through. but she knows, she cares. she's been through more than me, with your ATTITUDE. i can't stand it. she can. she's nicer than me. she gave you so many chances, yet you dumped her for a girl who caught your eye. and yet you asked me what you did wrong. don't lie- it doesn't work on me. your attitude seriously sucks. i want to just give up. give up on you. but i can't- because of her.
and you. he did you no wrong. he did no wrong. if there was anything wrong, it would have been between you and me. but why did you take it out on him? you act as though nothing was wrong. as if nothing had changed. but did you know, under the laughs and joy i hear when i talk to him on the phone, i can hear him asking WHY? he asked me so many times, told me that you broke up with hardly a reason. if he had did you wrong, then i understand. but on the one occasion when i met you... i saw a pair that seemed a match in heaven. why dont you give him another chance? his heart. when you ditched him, his heart must have broken.
and finally... why did you do this to me? i've been smsing you so many times, yet you ignore my smses? when casual smses you, you reply immediately? i've smsed you using so many numbers, yet you dont reply. why? nothing in this world seems right when you're not beside me. my heart will shatter if you dont reply. if you reply, saying you want to break, i wouldn't mind. but is this the way to dump?
i'm just lucky that i have cookie, casual and dimi with me. as well as all the other guild members. i'm just lucky that they understand. yet sometimes, i can only confide my secrets to casual, yet at other times... cookie is my confidant. cookie is not a crazy guy.. i just feel that he's *abit* mischeivous and abit nasty at *most of the* time. but he's loyal. this guild has a loyal feel. i remember the first guild i joined. *FAMILYS* it was called. it was fun at first, when we had all the guild slacking times. but then. when the gm expelled a jr. for not donating money, everything turned nasty. i couldnt stand it anymore and left. thanks to hope, he gave me a guild. a guild that was fun - no slacking times, but there were the occasional guild notice chats. and it just felt that i could let out my feelings to anyone who was on.
ok ._. i'm crapping again .. bye ._.
i still love you .
Much of the sorrow and anxiety I held 8:59 PM