Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Welcome to my Life
some friends you turned out t be.
people change, both for good and for worse.
but I don't see how this change could be for good,
because all the ways I look at it,
you're just changing into another person,
another heartless person who doesn't give a damn
about how people feel
why can you be with her;
yet I can't be with my own friend;
why can't you just learn to share;
why can't you just let me have something to be happy about;
why can't I just put down this fake smile
and just let it all out;
and why can't I have my own friends,
why can't she have her freedom,
why can't you just let me go,
why can't we just be happy,
why can't we all just return to the past and forget that we ever were friends?
because now all we can do is to give up and move on.
but why can't we?
because this friendship was too strong, too powerful.
and because we...
are afraid to let go,
afraid to move on.
you do not know
how your words hurt me,
how your actions told me
that all you care about is whether you are happy,
whether everything goes according to your own will,
that everything else is just your tool,
that everything is your weapon,
your servant,
so that you can be happy.
but i have feelings,
i feel hurt.
no, hurt is the wrong word.
its absolutely wrong.
its so wrong.
because i don't feel hurt...
i feel betrayed...
betrayed in the true sense of the word,
and you have never known this word,
because you never experienced it for yourself.
you can lie all you want,
you can scold all you want.
i'm not thick-skin, maybe your words are meant to make me tear,
to make me break.
but this post is dedicated to let my heart have some peace,
because i can't take it anymore .
you change so much and yet you blame it on her .
you were so gentle , so fun .
yet now ,
because of me perhaps, you changed.
or maybe because you wanted to make me feel bad, make her feel horrid.
but you're mean.
you're absolutely mean.
you might not feel mean,
but you are mean, and that's a fact .
i have no one to turn to,
no shoulder to cry on.
people change, both for good and for worse.
but I don't see how this change could be for good,
because all the ways I look at it,
you're just changing into another person,
another heartless person who doesn't give a damn
about how people feel
why can you be with her;
yet I can't be with my own friend;
why can't you just learn to share;
why can't you just let me have something to be happy about;
why can't I just put down this fake smile
and just let it all out;
and why can't I have my own friends,
why can't she have her freedom,
why can't you just let me go,
why can't we just be happy,
why can't we all just return to the past and forget that we ever were friends?
because now all we can do is to give up and move on.
but why can't we?
because this friendship was too strong, too powerful.
and because we...
are afraid to let go,
afraid to move on.
you do not know
how your words hurt me,
how your actions told me
that all you care about is whether you are happy,
whether everything goes according to your own will,
that everything else is just your tool,
that everything is your weapon,
your servant,
so that you can be happy.
but i have feelings,
i feel hurt.
no, hurt is the wrong word.
its absolutely wrong.
its so wrong.
because i don't feel hurt...
i feel betrayed...
betrayed in the true sense of the word,
and you have never known this word,
because you never experienced it for yourself.
you can lie all you want,
you can scold all you want.
i'm not thick-skin, maybe your words are meant to make me tear,
to make me break.
but this post is dedicated to let my heart have some peace,
because i can't take it anymore .
you change so much and yet you blame it on her .
you were so gentle , so fun .
yet now ,
because of me perhaps, you changed.
or maybe because you wanted to make me feel bad, make her feel horrid.
but you're mean.
you're absolutely mean.
you might not feel mean,
but you are mean, and that's a fact .
i have no one to turn to,
no shoulder to cry on.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Much of the sorrow and anxiety I held 9:02 PM